Sunday, July 31, 2005

It's official

Only days after being able to freely refer to pk as "my boyfriend', I can now officially say that I am co-habitating with my boyfriend. Wednesday night, pk and I moved the last of my belongings to his place. My entire apt is now stuffed into boxes and stacked up in his bachelor. Lugging all those boxes down and back up two flights of stairs made me start thinking of just throwing everything I own out - there seemed to be sooo much stuff. But today, I organised and repacked some things and stacked them up nicely, and now it doesn't feel so overwhelming. We thought about whether to get rid of all of our stuff and just buy new stuff when we get to bc, but it'll be cheaper for us to keep and ship our essentials (bed, coffee table, bookcases, papasan, and of course, our books)

In the coming weeks, I want to go through a few of my boxes and purge a few more things. Still struggling with this idea of letting go of my belongings.

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

the secret's out! No more mullet!

My coworker pk and I have been dating since September. That's right. Dating. And now that the secret's out, my mullet relationship is over. Our relationship has changed - no longer business in the front, party in the back.

While I must shed a single tear for the loss of such a fine mullet, I also rejoice in the fact that we no longer have to hide our relationship. No more thoughts of getting caught as we walk to the corner store, or to the movies together. Since pk got his fantastic job offer in Vancouver, and made the decision to move there together, the question as to how to break the news to the office was foremost in our thoughts. Pk had already given notice of his resignation the week before which was a big blow to the office so we wondered how they would take this second surprise.

Yesterday morning, we walked into the office, up to Boss' desk and asked him if he had a second to spare. We sat down and told him we had some good news and some bad news. the good news... that we had a great relationship going... then the bad news, I'd be leaving the office too. Boss took it pretty well, saying he had an inkling that something was going on between us. Because the opportunity to move to Vancouver came up so quickly for us, I offered to keep doing my design work for the company, but remotely, from Vancouver. So now I just have to wait for Boss and co. to decide what they want to do with my position. Since we were on a role, we decided to break the news to the rest of the office the same day. pk did a great intro, calling everyone together, looking very serious and telling them that they had to deal with a second surprise... he was so good at looking so serious, that he even had me convinced, wondering what bad news he was going to break this time! When he told everyone I was moving to Vancouver - with him, the faces of our coworkers were quite amusing. Most with their mouths slightly open, processing the news before they could speak. There was complete silence for a while. The people we thought would totally have some idea about us appeared to be the most shocked.

So now the secret is out and it feels great! I used the words "my boyfriend" the other day when refering to pk and it seemed so strange! We've been hiding our relationship so long, it felt so odd to say it outloud. I finally feel free to let my hair down and let the party take over!

Friday, July 22, 2005

I have a secret

My horoscope for yesterday...

The full Moon always marks a revelation of sorts, no matter who we are or what we're up to. In your case, this one is prompting you to reveal a secret that you're not quite comfortable about revealing. Not just yet, at least. Between now and the end of the day then, better find a way to make peace with yourself -- and with the owner of said secret. It's got to come out, and that's a fact. Bring it out as gently as possible.

Pk and I have a secret. It's a good secret. Nothing horrible. It started off as a small one, but it has grown quite dramatically in the past couple of weeks and become more than just a little tidbit of information. This secret no longer affects just pk and me but now has an effect on everyone we work with. Not that I rely on horoscopes to tell me what I should do, but I've been debating how and when this secret of ours should be revealed and I think today's horoscope confirms my thoughts of telling people soon rather than having them find out later.

Pk and I have decided that next week is the right time to reveal it. The biggest reason keeping us from saying anything before is lo longer an issue anymore. So now the question is, HOW?

I will ponder over the wknd. While I ponder, check out this blog PostSecret which is an ongoing community art project where people mail-in their secrets anonymously on one side of a homemade postcard.

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Morning ritual

There's one thing that I definitely won't miss about working in downtown Toronto...

The weekday morning ritual of maneuvering across a piss saturated office doorstep while trying to engineer a successful rescue of the morning newspaper splattered by the disgorged contents of someone's stomach from the night before.

- something I hope I will not have to endure ever again.

Letting go

It was 35 degrees in my apartment last night. This heat is making it extremely difficult to pack. I have 10 days to go through all my belongings and decide what I can take with me and what will have to find new home. I find it amazing how clutter so quickly invades my space. It's everywhere. I'm finding old receipts, old cards, and little trinkets that found a place to sit undetected in every nook, every crevice of my bookcase, every flat surface that isn't already a home to something else. Last night I sat on the floor and sorted through some of my belongings. Trying to determine the fate of each item while pondering the reason behind each decision. The toughest decisions are for those items that I don't really have a use for but are of sentimental value. There's the danger of slipping back down memory lane and never letting anything go. I have to learn to let go.

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

Daydreams on paper

I did this sketch during my lunch break at work almost a year ago. It's been sitting on my desk ever since....

Monday, July 18, 2005

A new adventure begins...

In moments of fatigue and frustration (moments which happen more often than I care to admit) I've found myself daydreaming of being surrounded by trees and mountains. Daydreams lead to thoughts of hiking through Carr-esque forests or looking out my dreamhouse window as I paint the spectacular peaks of the mountains not too far off in the distance.

It appears those daydreams will soon become reality.

With little trepidation, come Labour Day, I will be packing up my life here in Toronto and heading out for a new adventure in Vancouver. For the family and friends that I will miss dearly, I am hoping this blog will be a way to keep in contact and update everyone on this new adventure of mine.